Michael Hagans

I just want to share how God has delivered me, once I turned to fill up on HIM and HIS Spirit! In my old life, I used to always get together with my friends and do drugs; I would always want to smoke or do something to get "high". I was trying to fill up on something all the time. I got to the point where I would crawl on my hands and knees around the corners of my room looking for little pieces of marijuana to smoke when I didn't have any. I had a god and this god was not THE GOD that could really fill me.  I even got into a cough and cold medicine that had a chemical in it that would make one hallucinate. One time I over-dosed, and I found myself in a bath tub for four hours praying to GOD! God was merciful enough to spare me.

After that, I felt that my immune system was low, and I became very much a "germ freak" - afraid I would die if I touched something as simple as a bug! I would take out the trash with paper towels over my hands and then wash my hands, too! It was horrible -- I was in a prison!

I also pursued money, had pride, and tons of other things. I would put holes in the walls of my parents? house as a result of huge anger problems. I would just get upset if I didn't get my way, or if I had just washed my car and a little sprinkle got on it. My life was horrible when I lived that way-- with multiple gods in my heart.

I have always wanted a relationship with God. In all the churches I had attended, but there was nothing there! The members all seemed to stay in their sin; false messages were heard. God then connected the missing piece of the puzzle and showed me what my heart had been looking for! Which was HIM!! He showed me through a church that was doing it ALL THE WAY and through people living it out. I went to this church and was BLOWN AWAY! Everyone was so joyful, and the faces of the righteous were radiant!! I felt the Spirit of God in the room, the peace, love, joy, gentleness, all the fruits of the Spirit! Ever since then, I have pursued HIM!! I LOVE this life of only ONE GOD NOW and waiting on HIM and realizing it is not about ME, IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM! And NOTHING ELSE! I now have a NEW life, and I will for the rest of my days serve HIM and RUN down that NARROW ROAD!